Why me?

Life is so hard to walk on. I ever wish that it could end so I would feel no pain nor sorrow. That time I wish it all end instantly. My life is too dark to come back to light. All I think is grudge and hatred that engulf my heart. Blinded by avarice of my possesion. I don’t like people getting off their attention towards me. I want to be acknowledge. At the other side I don’t want to be a greedy person. It hurts me everytime I feel lack of attention.

They say I’m spoiled. I don’t care. I just don’t want to feel this loneliness. It’s killing me softly. I want to be accepted. I tried all my best just to make them satisfied. But I never succeed in any of it. Coz that’s not what I really like BEST.

I tried my best on my studies
I barely sleep every night before exam
I tried to revise and revise
I tried to be calm before exam

But they didn’t appreciate my work
They said that I’m so lazy
They said that I’m not serious in studies
Just because I looked so calm

What did I do wrong that I deserve this. I tried so hard to be accepted. I don’t want to be ignored. My mind is like crazy. Didn’t I try so hard…

Some says I’m freak
Some says I’m weird
Some says I’m crazy

I just want to live happily just like you guys
I just want to have a good life just like you guys
I just want to have friends

Written by : Luciferia Hekatherine