Dad, I am truly sorry.

This has been 2 weeks after my second semester's final exam occured. I feel so bored this holiday and wishing that I can go back home as soon as possible but I still have some matters to attend. Right this evening, my friend inform me that our exam scores has been published in the university's website. I really have a bad feeling about this because for this semester I've done something really bad. Really bad that it'll disappoint my father as he's sponsoring my university expenses and my living expenses in Tangerang, which is quite expensive.

I didn't mean to show off about this, but my first semester GPA is 3.6 which is quite remarkable for a formerly lazy student like me and I'm really proud of it. Since I entered the second semester, my university shifted our class members within the same faculty. This is where it all started.

I befriend the wrong peoples. Sorry guys if you read this, but I didn't mean you guys are bad in terms of manner or behaviour. It's just that I am easily got carried away. It's entirely not you guys fault. If there's someone to blame it is me alone. What happened is I befriended some friends and we start hanging out, having fun outside school. Me, I start to lose my interest and what should be my primary objection - study and pay attention. I rarely pay attention in class, I skipped classes, I spent less time to self-study. Naturally, I'm not a genius and what keeps my grade high is that I'm so eager to study. Thus my lack interest of studying has done a great damage on my grade.

My 2nd semester GPA dropped significantly to 2.0. Tragic huh... People says regret came later. Well, this is basically what I really felt. I feel so betrayed, regretting everything I've done til' now. Feeling so ignorant and fooled. Why do I let my greediness take over me, why do I prioritize having fun over my parent's feeling?

Dad, I'm really sorry for disappointing you. You know I can't say that right in front of you because I'm too proud of myself. ;( But I promise I'll correct this mistake right away. I want disappoint you. I learned what I've to learn about this matter.